I am not making a yurt this year.
Jun. 24th, 2009 06:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spookyeviloneAnd if I keep telling myself that, I might not do it.
Two weeks until my summer SCA event. It just hit me. It's two weeks to the event and I don't have to panic. I'm not running it this year. There's nothing I have to do except show up. Heck, I don't even have to camp on site if I don't want. I could hotel it if I wanted to. I can relax.
Not that I will, but, y'know.. I can.
It also occurred to me that I don't have a cooking area this year. Or a nice canvas shade fly. I'm fighting the urge to do the "Oh, I could just make one!" thing - because really, I can't. Not without more stress than I want between now and then. At some point, I want to make one of the dragon wing style shades. Just.. not this year.
Then it hit me that I don't really want to cook. It's going to be hot. And... I don't have to cook. It's just That Guy and I, as far as I know, and I'll do my little Russian sandwiches, pita bread, hummus, some grain salads, and call it good.
It's a very odd feeling. For the last five years, I've been involved one way or another with the running of that event. Everyone thinks the event burned me out, but I'd cheerfully take up the reins of the reins again. It wasn't the event. It was the bullshit "You have a DUTY to your BARONY and to your KINGDOM to volunteer for even more stuff now!" crap that made me want to have nothing to do with the SCA. I was thinking about not going to the event, mostly because I am just sick of all things SCA right now.. but I love the event. And, as much as I hate politics, it would make a statement I didn't intend to make if I didn't go. And that? That right there? That is what I hate about the hobby. That to some people, it's not a fucking hobby.
So, I'm going, and I'm going to have fun. Next year, I'll do something productive. This year, I intend to do absolutely nothing but what whim strikes me.
Two weeks until my summer SCA event. It just hit me. It's two weeks to the event and I don't have to panic. I'm not running it this year. There's nothing I have to do except show up. Heck, I don't even have to camp on site if I don't want. I could hotel it if I wanted to. I can relax.
Not that I will, but, y'know.. I can.
It also occurred to me that I don't have a cooking area this year. Or a nice canvas shade fly. I'm fighting the urge to do the "Oh, I could just make one!" thing - because really, I can't. Not without more stress than I want between now and then. At some point, I want to make one of the dragon wing style shades. Just.. not this year.
Then it hit me that I don't really want to cook. It's going to be hot. And... I don't have to cook. It's just That Guy and I, as far as I know, and I'll do my little Russian sandwiches, pita bread, hummus, some grain salads, and call it good.
It's a very odd feeling. For the last five years, I've been involved one way or another with the running of that event. Everyone thinks the event burned me out, but I'd cheerfully take up the reins of the reins again. It wasn't the event. It was the bullshit "You have a DUTY to your BARONY and to your KINGDOM to volunteer for even more stuff now!" crap that made me want to have nothing to do with the SCA. I was thinking about not going to the event, mostly because I am just sick of all things SCA right now.. but I love the event. And, as much as I hate politics, it would make a statement I didn't intend to make if I didn't go. And that? That right there? That is what I hate about the hobby. That to some people, it's not a fucking hobby.
So, I'm going, and I'm going to have fun. Next year, I'll do something productive. This year, I intend to do absolutely nothing but what whim strikes me.